our deepest fear

this is a poem that i enjoy reading over and over. you may have read it or heard some of it before. a friend just reminded me of it. for me it provides a helpful reminder from time to time. i hope it encourages you. Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our … More our deepest fear

mamita

Written Wednesday, July 13, 2011 For the last several weeks, I’ve been taking care of a dog that’s stolen my heart. I’ve named her “Mamita,” which means “little mama.” She had an owner, but they decided they didn’t want her anymore because she “got too big,” or at least that’s the word on the streets. … More mamita

black like me?

Written Wednesday, July 13, 2011 The volunteers got together to celebrate the Fourth of July. I took a guagua (small bus) to get there, and on the way there was a Haitian man on the side of the road waiting for the bus. The cobrador (the guy that charges money and tells the driver when … More black like me?

the enemies

Written June 4, 2011 Note: If you get squeamish about gross stuff, maybe you should skip this entry. I wrote this in my journal, and wasn’t sure if it I should post it. Mneh, why not? Sometimes you hear these noises, and you’d just rather not know what they are. Other times you hear things … More the enemies

happy blogiversary!

as of may 27th, i´ve been blogging for a year. it´s been fun sharing my natural hair photos and rants, my heart for God, my thoughts–organized or random–and of course most recently my peace corps experience with my family, friends and with whoever else decides to read. here are some interesting stats: the three most … More happy blogiversary!

day 89

Written Sunday, May 29, 2011 Since swearing in, I’ve just been acclimating myself to my community. Here are a few updates: Marcia. So, for a few days we had a chicken take up residence under the bushes next to our pouch to incubate her eggs. When I got back to my site after swearing in, … More day 89

my site

Written Sunday, May 8, 2011 On Tuesday, we got our site assignments. I opened my assignment packet and read the first few sentences that graced the cover letter: You are about to embark on a journey that will change your life. Peace Corps will give you the opportunity to directly affect the lives of many … More my site

back in the city

Written Monday, May 2 We finished CBT (technical training for our sector) and returned to Santo Domingo on Friday, but not before I had one of the most embarrassing moments I’ve ever in my life experienced. I have to share this on the World Wide Web, because sometimes you’re so humbled (or humiliated) that you … More back in the city

storm back home

Written Wednesday, April 20, 2011 Saturday afternoon a tornado ripped through Raleigh and other parts of North Carolina. I found out around 8pm that evening, right before going to watch a movie with the other volunteers. I called my sister in Raleigh to make sure they were okay, and she got back in touch with … More storm back home

canto a mi Dios

Written Today 🙂 This past Sunday, I visited the church again. Even for a Pentecostal church, their services are long! Lol but I enjoyed myself. Their praise team is really good, as well as their musicians. I thought it would be a good idea to meet some of them, and sit in on a praise … More canto a mi Dios

cbt

Written Monday, March 28, 2011 On Thursday of last week the Information & Communication Technology (ICT) group traveled to El Seibo, where we’ll spend the next several weeks in technical training for our sector (what PC calls community-based training, or CBT). This has been a really nice change from congested Santo Domingo. The community is … More cbt

volunteer visit

Written Today 🙂 On Thursday we went on our volunteer visits. Each trainee visited a current volunteer within his/her sector to get an idea of what it’s like to be an actual volunteer. My volunteer lived in Manabao, which in the mountains. It was coooooooooold! At night I to layer up with several blankets and … More volunteer visit

la raza

Written Tuesday, March 15, 2011 On Monday we discussed race in the Dominican Republic, and specially, how Dominicans view themselves. Dominicans (and most Latinos) don’t look at race as “black,” “white,” etc. but rather view their race, regardless of physical features, as solely “Dominican.” This point of view is what caused recent changes in the … More la raza

nine days in

so apparently, what i thought was the water coming (see previous blog post) was not it, and the water came for real a few days ago! i now love cold showers. they are much preferable to bucket baths with no running water. next week we go to visit current volunteers, so i’m pretty excited about … More nine days in

staging

Staging (a one-day, pre-training orientation) went well today. Tomorrow we go to the Dominican Republic. Excited, but more than that, very, very, very exhausted. My next blog update will be from the DR :). I’m still not sure that it’s fully hit me that I’m away from home for two years. Maybe it will once … More staging

my peace corps timeline

here’s a timeline of the precursor to my journey with the peace corps. this timeline does not include every single update i underwent, but gives a good general picture of my application process. (late) january 2010: considered and prayed about joining peace corps. did some research. made the decision to join/apply for the peace corps. … More my peace corps timeline

all of creation

captivated but no longer bound by chains left at an empty grave the sinner and the sacred resolved i simply cannot get enough of this song! and all of creation sing with me now lift up your voice and lay your burden down

minority moment

can i just have a second to have a minority moment? i opened my web browser at work, which went to my local news channel’s homepage, only to see the headline, “Man charged in Greyhound bus hijacking.” “ha!” i think. “what an idiot.” so i put on my fb status, “you hijack a bus?? and … More minority moment

pelo malo

“pelo malo.” it literally means “bad hair” in spanish. and in latin america (particularly the caribbean) it’s something heard not infrequently. so i’m trying to prepare myself for how i’ll react when i hear it in the dominican republic. i’ll be there for 27 months. my hair is natural. so i know i’ll hear it. … More pelo malo

why legalism sucks

“Therefore, if you died with Christ from the basic principles of the world, why, as though living in the world, do you subject yourselves to regulations—“Do not touch, do not taste, do not handle,” which all concern things which perish with the using—according to the commandments and doctrines of men? These things indeed have an … More why legalism sucks

my new body!

i wanted to post an update to the blog post about looking for a church home. i found it! 🙂 it’s not a “perfect church,” and i dont think there is such thing as one on this side of heaven. there are things i don’t like, but i truly believe it offers just what i … More my new body!

loving through hurt

“Therefore be imitators of God as dear children. And walk in love, as Christ also has loved us and given Himself for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweet-smelling aroma.” ephesians 5:1-2 i’ve recently had an experience that lead to a lot of hurt. i was sorely misunderstood by multiple individuals, … More loving through hurt

first learn spanish. then study chinese.

Here’s an interesting article from the New York Times about learning Spanish, Chinese, and languages in general in the United States. Maybe one day, we’ll truly endow our youngins’ with the value of being bi-lingual–as well as bi-cultural–individuals. Primero Hay Que Aprender Español. Ranhou Zai Xue Zhongwen. By NICHOLAS D. KRISTOF A quiz: If a … More first learn spanish. then study chinese.

salt and light

“John Coltrane is sometimes described as one of jazz’s most influential musicians, but one is hard put to find followers who actually play in his style. Rather, he is influential by example, inspiring musicians to experiment, take chances, and devote themselves to their craft.” ~ William Ruhlmann, Rovi (from Pandora) This just makes me think: … More salt and light

natural prejudice

whether we know it or not, whether we want to admit it or not, each of us has prejudices. preconceived notions about others based on one facet of their complex existence. for example, some white folks would see me walking with my niece and nephew and assume that i’m a single mother, probably on welfare. … More natural prejudice

come to me

“are you tired? worn out? burned out on religion? come to me. get away with me and you’ll recover your life. i’ll show you how to take a real rest. walk with me and work with me—watch how i do it. learn the unforced rhythms of grace. i won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on … More come to me

speak those things

i’ve been listening to AM radio broadcasts for the past few days now. i’ve had sparky (my car) for two years, but this is the first time i’ve ever really done that. the station (1240 in raleigh) has pretty good sermons, talks and programming. today on the way home, i heard someone say: “jesus wasn’t … More speak those things

they that wait

in spanish, there is one word that represents to wait, to hope and to expect: esperar. in other words, if you want to say, “i am waiting for you,” you would say, “te espero.” if you want to say, “i hope you come,” you would say, “espero que vengas.” if you want to say, “i’m expecting a … More they that wait

teaching about banks

i decided to focus on everyday places for this session of ESL. each class, we’ve covered experiences in everyday places like the workplace (and jobs), the bank, restaurants, etc. for the bank lesson, i created an illustration. in it, a man got paid cash, thought about depositing his money into a bank, but decided against … More teaching about banks

old habits die hard

sometimes you do something for so long that you begin to associate it with yourself…with, i suppose, part of the fabric of who you are. even when this habit is bad for you, even when you know better than doing it, even when its effects are detrimental to you, even when you dont want to … More old habits die hard

making decisions

if your decisions don’t start working with your destiny you’re going to spend your life going in circles. sometimes…okay, i guess pretty often, i tend to get stumped when it comes to making decisions. i think part of it is just being afraid of making mistakes. (hey, dont judge me, i appreciate your prayers. lol) … More making decisions